sanctuary

so seattle was awesome gloriously fun. my boy is what i thought and even more. im back home now and i cant help but feel those stupid human insecurities kick in. this is a weird situation since we live across so many states and cant see each other face to face everyday. but he is being very kind and making me feel like he values me even if i am annoying and worrying. now its up to fate to keep us together and well see each other soon again. everything will be ok. this is how it is when you really dig someone i guess... i havent really liked many people before so its a new feeling. i was there a few days ago but i still wish i was there now. ohwell. i will be optimistic on this, because i know everything he says is honest. he is the best person ive ever met. i was shown dug up photos of him and his ex, from my sister. which broke my heart but then i realized i didnt even talk to him at that time. ooooh today is vday and my step dad (stunt dad, lol) bought me candy and i just gained like 3957857 lbs on it. i love chocolate hehe. im smoking again but im down to alot less a day which is gud.... but ill be even more stoked when im down to NONE! lets see... its a beautiful day here and im not sick anymore, so things are looking better. i finished deathnote 1 and 2.... now today i am going to buy the rest of the volume... or some of it. this book is kickin ass. it rocks. and thats basically it for now. mo

man i miss rey so mucho

Hiya. I just made this. I'm going to start writing in it/ Or shall i say TRY to. Anyways, Today is my sisters birthday. Woo! Seattle soon! yay! More on that later when i buy my tickets.
Last year on this day i was shooting with Wheat.


Haha, Weird, I can't believe it's been one full year since my last visit to california. Life has changed so much. Very much for the better. I have seriously suprised myself. No CRAZY parties every single night...I have become much more healthy, physically and mentally. Although i did pick up the nazty habit of smoking as of late, but ill drop it when the time is right. i think im doing a photoshoot soon, ill be sure to post the picz from it up here. yeeeeea its cold out over here man, i need some warmth. My cat Juniper has seriously been a blessing in my life, she came to me admist heartbreak and depression and took my focus off myself and on to her cute lil self. I think god sent her to me becoz the night before i did a ritual (just for fun) and POP there she was. Hm, Interesting right?
Right now I have found myself magnetically attracted to the National Geographic channel. So amazing. They have back to back alien shows on the other day...Pondering the mysteries of such makes me SO excited.

Right now im drinkin Sake and plum wine. tonight i am eating chinese food, I always order the same : Family style tofu. It taste superb. Then after Birthday cake for my sister (of course) haha. I love how all of my own birthdays are jinxed...Seriously in the past 5 yrs my bdays have been TERRIBLE to say the least. But i like to make other people feel special anyway even if mine suck.

I am reading a wonderful book at the moment which i shall post in a bit. xx

This picture is one i like by LOSTFISH ... i dig her style alot